Implosion

Name: Ducky
Chatango: Lariduck
Characters: Laura Richardson

Dates: 17th June - 7th July
Reason: Basically... My mind has imploded. I have muse, but it won't get down into words at the moment due to all the wrestling with whatever my brain thinks it's doing at the moment. I have no memory (yet again) and it's more waiting around to see if these drugs are The Ones and then seeing if bigger doses will make them work... We're trying to see if I can get more support than the hour a week I have so I can try to get back to school in september, which happens to be freaking me out even more. Actually everything is freaking me out.

So... I'm sorry. I want to post and app Niamh and chat in the cbox and everything, I just can't at the moment. I might end up extending this. I don't want to, and I'm sorry I'm always doing this. Everything's just... gone wrong. I'm sorry.

*hugs Ducky tonnes* OH sweetie, we're all here for you, even if you can't chat with us. We hope you get better and love you lots.

Oh, Ducky. *hugs tightly* We love you to death and we're all thinking of you. I hope you get better soonest, and we'll be here when you get back. <3 <3 <3

*hugs on the Ducky*

Just remember... This too shall pass.

Keep your head up.

*puts glitter on the ducky*

WE LOVE YOU and hope you start feeling right again soon!

-snugs-

Not exactly sure what's going on (it's like a recurring theme) but no memory sounds awful, and I hope the drugs start to work, if that's good, which I'm pretty sure it is, and I love you~ and get better <3

Thanks, guys. It means a lot.

The drugs were not The Ones. So I have to come off them which is proving to be a whole bunch of not-fun, with the shaking hands and palpitations and even more anxiety and what have you. As well as this there have been developments, and not good ones. In addition to everything else I now have selective mutism (actually I always had it, but whatever) and I can't speak to anyone. They can't help me unless I talk. I can't talk unless they help me. Either way something has to give. They're looking at referring me on somewhere. Which will take more time. The depression and anxiety have spiralled, and I have no attention span. Again.

I'm going to need to extend this. I'm really really sorry, I can't face an actual conversation right now. This is... hard. A note is the best I can manage and I'm really sorry. I know I'm supposed to PM someone, but I just can't. It's too much. I'm so sorry. I just can't. I've tried and tried and tried and I can't do it. I'm sorry.

*sends Lari all of the hugs, ever.*

Love you Lari....-hugs-

Sorry. I feel really bad about not being here, but I'm not getting any better.

We have not got a straight answer about referrals (probably because it costs money or something) but we've tried new pills that don't seem to be working and I still can't talk and things are just... wrong. And I'm all mixed up and muddled.

So I need to extend. Again. I'm sorry, I just... I can't. I can't read right now and writing is out of the question and I wish I could, I want to come back, I really do, it's just everything's exploded everywhere. And I miss this like crazy.

*Cuddles our intrepid little duck* Take all the time you need, sweetie.

No need for apologies, lovey. You take the time you need for you. That comes first.

:: hugs ::

I hope you start feeling better soon!

*cuddles Ducky* Honeypie, you take all the time you need. We will still be here waiting for you with open arms when you're ready to come back.

We love you, honey. *hugs*

WHAT THEY ALL SAID!!!

*much much hugs and love*

<3333333

Oh Ducky I'm sorry this is happening to you. But like they all said, take all the time you need -snuggles-

-snugs tight- Just relax and think happy peaceful thoughts Duckers. It's no rush.

We'll be sending good healthy vibes your way.